Bradley Has a Revelation...Part 1

Some people think life is hum drum and you fall into patterns. In relationships these are called rough times, and in jobs they are called slumps, but they are all the same. I have been blessed with the ability in my life to avoid this like all you avoid giving change to homeless people. I'm always looking for something new and exciting, which ironically leads me to having epiphanies as frequently as you change the channel. Sometimes these are good, and sometimes they are bad, but they are always a new perspective on life. I'm decided to make this a recurring theme in my life and now my blogging.

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My revelation came to me on the way to on the way to our all day breakfast feast. Seriously what's better than poached eggs and waffles all day? But I'm getting ahead of myself. Superman has had serious health issues for a long time, issues that should have killed him were he not so young. Well on the way to breakfast he mentions how funny it is that I have myself on a diet. I explained it's for health reasons, not weight loss and my only reasoning was to outlast him. Call me insensitive, and my New Year's resolution of a verbal filter went out the window. Now our conversation had taken an unexpected and rather unfortunate turn. "I know I've had [health issues] and I know it's not the last I'll see of them. I may make it to 45 if what the doctors say is true, so I am going to eat, smoke, and drink whatever I want. I'll be happy and fat with you."

This is not only a very sentimental gesture on his part, but a new step for us. This is where my revelation came in. This is the first that our future was talked about in the long term, but also our immanent future. No matter what, in long term relationships one person lasts longer than the other, and as it seems the fate have it written that it is me. As a complete relationship phobe my first thought is to run at the first sight of my feelings getting hurt, but as someone who really cares for this guy I have never been more ready to settle down and enjoy every minute I can with him. I've never pictured myself as the marrying type. I always saw myself in a retirement home alone, drinking scotch, and hitting on all the cute male nurses. Now I'm seeing the same thing, but in a totally different way. A way where alone doesn't really mean alone, just left behind.

With this revelation, as with all revelaations, you can choose the positive or negitive light to read it in. As I almost always do I chose positive. Superman has an expiration date, but so do the rest of us. Tomorrow morning I'm going to do indoor rock climbing, then off to work, and maybe some quality time with a quality guy. If today was your expiration date (and you were Ketchup) would you think about how long you sat in the fridge, or would you say "Damn I was on alot of burgers?"

Bradley James